College

Picking what college to go to is a really big choice and can influence the rest of your life. I lately have been on the search for more colleges because at first I though I knew where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do but slowly I have been changing my mind. People put so much pressure on you trying to decided where to go and what to do for school. The one thing I have always been interested in is fashion and shopping. So off of that I was looking into jobs that had to do with that. Ever since then I found out what a buyer is. A buyer for a company is someone who picks out everything and decides where it comes from and what the price is and when it goes in the store and for how long and you have to keep updated fashion and make sure you know what people like and what they are looking for. I was super excited when I found out this is actually a thing and I am really interested in it. So after that the next time someone asked me what I want to do I told them I want to be a buyer for a clothing or department store. You should have seen there faces. Most people of the people I have told have said "you know it is different then just shopping right?"  and "you can't shop as a job". Almost everyone I have told has not been very positive about it and seems rather disappointed in me. I continue to get the same reaction every time I tell people so I am so torn on what to do. The end of high school is coming up fast and I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I have little ideas in my head and little plans I make but I know how much it can change it a heartbeat. Parents always when first talking to you ask you the question. What do you want to do with your life after school. Normally I make up some BS answer and try to talk about maybe following my dads footsteps and going into business. I never really put much thought into what I want to do with my life after school. Now it is all coming at me so fast and there is so much to think about. I found this website which was a very helpful way to help me organize colleges to help me pick which ones to look at. https://bigfuture.collegeboard.org/ It helps specifically pick what colleges are best for you.  

Lana Del Rey

Lana Del Rey has a voice that I could listen to all day long. Her music has so much meaning and passion in it. All the songs have this certain vibe to it that is a little more on the sad side but still so beautiful. Her album Born to Die came out January 27th 2012 and was on iTunes on January 31st. The Album got number one in 2012 and 2013 for Top Digital Albums, Top Rock and Top modern rock/Alternative Albums. It also made it as number two on The Billboard top 200 in 2012.
In interviews she says that a lot of her are music is inspired by her life and what has happened in her life. They are from the love and lost in her life. She went to boarding school growing up to get over her alcohol addiction. Then moved back to New York City to start her life over. She feels she has walked her own path her whole life. She started singing in her high school choir and making videos when she was 17. She originally was collecting just vintage clips of places she liked for her music videos. She put it to classical music before she put it to her own music. Then she started putting herself in the videos and putting it to her own music. The fact that her videos were made by herself partially got her a lot of attention.
Her song Young and Beautiful was put into the movie The Great Gatsby. It was used for the main theme of the movie. She worked with Baz Luhrmann to make it go with the scenes in the movie and have the songs emotions and feelings work so well into it. She is very famous now and is well known around the world. Check out her website, music, music videos and more at www.lanadelrey.com if you want to join the newest crave about Lana Del Rey.

Her music is just so good when you listen to it and so real. It is kind of "dark" for some people and some people think its sad but I honestly just think its good because its truly about life and the struggles of life. She is so real in her music and its really inspiring. If you have never listened to her before I really do recommend listening to her. Hope you enjoy!

My outfit

I would like to point out it wasn't bothering anyone is class at all. I actually got multiple compliments on it to be honest. And we were all sitting and reading the whole class time. It isn't like I was throwing my hands in the air and leaning all around and trying to show more skin. My outfit today was khakis shorts which aren't tight at all and a good length for school and then the big deal was my shirt. For a shirt I had on a light pink bandeau that is lacey and covers a good chunk of skin longer then your middle finger, about half your hand all the way around Then my shirt has open sides that tie at the bottom. It is NOT a crop top or extremely short at all. You can literally only see 3 inches or less of my side. MY SIDE. Less skin is showing then the bandeau is covering. I literally got called to the office because my side is showing folks. My side is too scandalous for school apparently. Not to mention the shirt isn't like low cut or anything its high all around and goes up past my collar bone and has a top of like a t-shirt and its floral print. I have watched a girl everyday at school since it is warm out either one, wear shorts so small her ass hangs out and like a small tank top or wear a crop top with low rise jeans. Now I would like someone to please explain to me why that is okay that someone at school can have there whole butt hanging out of there shorts and have there whole entire stomach showing but I can not show my sides. It isn't like I am just wearing a bra either. It is a bandeau that covers like 5 inches all the way around. I also know a ton of other girls who show so much cleavage. If my side bone is more distracting then cleavage in school then I don't even know what to say anymore. I would also like to explain that this week and past weeks I have not worn anything inappropriate. One day I had jeans and a full shirt one and another I had shorts and a sweatshirt on so if someone wants to tell me what's wrong with that because I would love an explanation.
If anyone can explain to me why what I am wearing isn't okay and what the half the girls at are schools wear then I wouldn't make a big deal of it. School policies are being ridiculous and I am furious. I am a naturally small person and if can't show my side at school while I am constantly seeing other girls bottoms, cleavage and stomach everyday and they aren't getting in trouble, something obviously needs to change. I would understand if schools called me out about my shirt if they were also targeting everyone else who is wearing worse stuff then me, but until they change that I will put of my guard about this and not be targeted when there is worse going on. It really just depends on the teachers you have and they are the ones who report your outfits which isn't fair because some teachers don't care at all while others are super strict. Now I have learned though, what class to wear a jacket in so I don't get nailed. I wish schools could understand that there is worse out there at school and the ones who get in trouble for the small stuff is sad because they aren't solving the real problem.

School Dress Code

Today for the first time in high school history I had to go to the principal's office because I was in trouble. My teacher told me after my first hour that the assistant principle wanted to talk to me and I had to report to the office. My first thought was that I was getting in trouble because I am usually a few minutes late to her class so I assumed it was about my attendance issues or something like that. I had seen him walking into my class earlier that day and my teacher then left the room with him to talk to him but then came back so I thought nothing of it just a question. It turns out my teacher had called him down to talk about my outfit and how it was inappropriate. I was not aware of this though until I had to go to his office after class. I think that this is absolutely ridiculous and it makes me so mad.
First off my teacher at the end of class told me that she needed to talk to me and so I waited to see what she had to say and then she just hesitated and told me to go to the assistant principles office before my next class. Confused and worried, because I am not one who likes getting in trouble at all, it makes me want to cry, I went to his office. As I walked in he asked me if I was who I was and asked me if my teacher had talked to me about what this was about, she had not so then he told me to sit down in this office and wait for him. So all alone I sat there scared of what I had done and waited for him for what felt like several minutes. Finally came in a shut the door and sat down. His first words were "We have been concerned about you Leah" of course I was like "about what...." because I was still very confused. Then he proceeded to tell me about how my dress code has been very inappropriate lately and I am not following dress code. Very annoyed that this is why they were "so concerned about me" with as little sass as I could give I offered to go put a jacket on and hold myself back from fighting it. They said they would just give me a t-shirt but I was not about to just wear some random shirt from the school so I insisted that I would go and my jacket from the car and not wear a t-shirt from school. I angrily left after that and was sent to my car to go get a jacket and then was late to my next class. I do not feel that what I am wearing is inappropriate but I will get to that. Even if what I was wearing was not to my teachers liking she should have told me herself that she didn't find my shirt ok and to please put a jacket on. It is absolutely ridiculous that she had to call the assistant principle down first and then talk to him in the hall during class to just tell him that she thinks my shirt isn't okay. She had the guts to have someone else tell me what I was wearing isn't appropriate but she wouldn't say it to my face. The fact that they made a big deal out of it and couldn't just nicely tell me makes me upset.

Girl Model Continued

When Nadia finally gets a contract set up another girl comes on camara and talks about how all the the contracts just scam girls and take over half there money because the girls are so young and don't know any better of how much they should be getting or how much the companies are taking, Nadia is rejected many places and her friend who helped her pay for things is sent home because she gained a few pounds from eating too much. Nadia is very confused and even has to use the film makers phone to call her parents because she doesn't know how to any way else. When she finally has a few photos shoots only one of her photo ends up in a magazine and it's only like part of her face. When she comes home she is actually in debt and lost money because of Tokyo. She didn't get the jobs they told her and she just lost more money. This just keeps happening with girls send over there yet the scouts just keep sending them. 

Ashley is the modeling Scott they follow around. After the process of picking girls, it takes it back to show you where she lives in the US. You find out that she lives alone in this big house. She is a really strange girl and the modeling really messed her up because she was an actually model before she actually quit. It was driving her insane being a model and how horrible it was. She talks about how much she cares about all the girl models yet she never sees them and has no idea what happens to them once they go to Tokyo. She is a little crazy too because she wants kids so she has these two dolls that she just takes everywhere in her house to pretend they are her kids. She also creepyily takes pictures of models just feet and legs or hands in there lap. She tries to take them without them noticing. She also takes the whole body shots And cuts them in half and then try's to math them up. She has boxes full of these pictures. She is a little insane. She has past video clips of her talking when she was a model and she is crazy and it drove her crazy. 

The documentary is really eye opening about issues I had no idea even existed. It's crazy how they can just send these girls on there own to suffer and hopefully make it. 

Girl Model

I recently watched a a documentary on Netflix about models and the career of a model in Siberia and Tokyo. Throughout the documentary you follow around two girls in the video mainly. One is a girl named Ashley who is a former model and she is now a modeling scout. She recruits girls from Siberia and then sends them over to Tokyo to hopefully have more luck over there. They also follow around Nadia who is a thirteen year old girl who is chosen by Ashley to be sent to Tokyo to start a modeling career. The movies shows all the struggles and how extreme and messed up the system really is. They are shoving in to girls into Tokyo and just hoping there model career might take off if they are lucky. It makes you realize how horrible it is and yet still no one is making a change or even trying.
It starts off by showing the girls in the modeling process and thousands of girls going though the process and trying to be chosen to be sent to Tokyo and hopefully start a career.

When you first follow around Nadia you see how bad her home life is. Living in Siberia her home life is really bad and they have very little money and are barely getting by. When they find out that Nadia is being selected to go to Tokyo her family gets extremely excited and has a celebratitory dinner. With the money the company told her she is gonna make with the jobs she is garanteed she can send home and help her family. They send her over a plane by herself to Toyko to start her career she is guaranteed to make money on. She gets lost in the airport because she doesn't understand what anyone is saying at all and she has no way to translate it. The people filming her actually end up having to help her because she is so lost and confused. When she finally gets to Where she is staying you see how small and horrible the living conditions are. She the next day is picked up by a guy who takes her from place to place to see what people want her to model for her. You find out that they lied and there isn't jobs for them right away and so they have nothing. She also didn't have any extra money so another girl model is paying for her to eat while she is there. She doesn't understand like what anyone is saying and is really confused. 

Habitat For Humanity

Last week I went with my friend to get fitted for a fashion show for charity. When I was there they invited me to join to cause they could use extra girls they said! I was super excited to join because ever since I was a little girl I have wanted to walk on stage and have all eyes on me but my problem is I am also very shy so I can't do anything like sing alone or dance or speak in front of people. So that dream went down the drain but doing this fashion show sounded really fun! It was like professional but not super strict or anything which was good for my first time walking.
We got fitted at this second hand store because the idea of the fashion show was for Habitat for Humanity and they wanted to show that recycling and second hand clothing is good and still stylish. Both my friend I got to find things around the store that fit us well and were cute. My friend, Jill, found a cute black dress that was from BCBG and then she accesorized it with jewelry and purple heels for some color pop.  I went for the more casual look and wore skinny jeans and I found a really cute black grey and coral cardigan which I wore with a black tank and then accented it with a big statement necklace that just had a it of coral to match the cardigan. I wore it with black pumps I have that are Steven madden. You have to wear heels no matter the outfit on stage. Especially  I had to because I am short compared to all of them. I am 5'7 myself and all the rest of them are like 5'9 at least. They all also have flawless skin and no acne which made me feel a little insecure because of my acne which isn't even that bad but compared to them it seemed that way. They are all extremely skinny too. Every single girl was pretty tiny and there hips and waist and bust is all so small. When it came to the skinny factor I was fine because I am a naturally small person and I always have been.
After the fitting the next day we had a run through of all the orders we walked in and practiced in our heels and with our music. When the girl was half way done in front of us you had to stand back left and stand and look sassy then when the person got back and stood next to you, you could walk. You walked down the runway and then to the right side of the stage and then to the left and then back and stood and waited for the next person to walk and you get off and you are done. We ran through this with the order to make sure we were all ready and knew what to do especially for Jill and I since it was our first time walking ever.
At the place this girl said that she couldn't come and do it anymore and she was younger which means she was shorter. They were struggling cause the dress they were trying to get the girls to wear it was too short on them because they were all so tall! This is where I came in handy because I am "short"! I was then put into the finally with a a dress which I was supper excited about! The dress I wore was part of the contest where companies made costumes and they had to be out of recycled material completely! My dress was more a computer company and I wore a dress that was black and sparkly and then covered in CD's! It sounds crazy I know but everyones was! The girl in front of me had a dress that was completely made out of coffee things and were all dyed. It was actually a beautiful dress and it won the contest! The person bethink be was a giant flower pot and had a flower head. One girl even  had giant wings that she had to walk with! It was so much fun and I had a super fun time and It was a really good experience! The lady even asked Jill and I to model again for explain senior pictures for a company that does them near by! I am super excited and I wish I could do the fashion show again! I can't wait for more fun experiences with my best friend!